new blog?

i don’t know why i’m creating a new blog when i barely post in the existing one. and i had one before my current one, but i kind of stopped posting on that one, too. am i a blog heart breaker? use one for a while, then dump it and move on, unrepentantly?

i don’t want this to be boring. my life is not boring, generally speaking, and i don’t know why i can’t convey that into words. i am captivated by my life, albeit a bit narcissistic at times, so why is my writing so banal? is it because i use words like banal just to prove that i know them (and then secretly open a new tab in firefox, m-w.com, and check to make sure i either spelled it write or used it correctly in context)? is it because i waffle between wanting to write seriously and beautifully and wanting to write hilarious sardonic pieces that people will take from online and infuse into real life conversations?

either way, here goes. i do not want to abandon livejournal. maybe i will make that one just for photos from now on because i had such a good time posting pictures the other day. (that may be a friends-only post, who knows?) i need to find a purpose for this blog. that’s step one. and step two is to aim to fulfill it. step three is to smoke less. it’s bad for me.