we were supposed to go for a ride on the motorcycle, but he said it was too cold and that i would freeze. it was really cold, but i was still asking about it because i’d been psyching myself up for it all week. sunday, i will ride. sunday, i will ride. i’m nervous. i’ve never been on a motorcycle before. everyone tells me that i will be fine, but i’m still going to be nervous about it no matter what.

next sunday, his friend is riding up here on his bike. my guy said, we should all cruise then… you, me, him, and his girlfriend. i took that as a really good sign. that’s a double date, right? or at least, he’s getting into the mindset where 1. i’m important enough to introduce to his friends from back home and 2. i could be there as his… like, his female addition to the group. so maybe like his girlfriend?

this is so weird. i’ve never had anything move so slowly before, but i love it. i love it because i still feel nervous and excited every time i see him or think about him or talk to him. i still go back and edit e-mails that i write to him so that it sounds perfect and he’ll think i’m a witty, intellectual, fantastic, beautiful person.

last night, we went out for liana’s birthday. she’s amazing, and probably number one or two on my best friends list. at least, in buffalo right now. but definitely top five overall. we went to faherty’s where her mom bought us all drinks and shots to celebrate and we had a good chant going: DAY OF BIRTH! DAY OF BIRTH!

then we went to the pink but it was dead, so we went to brick bar, but that was dead, so we walked to frizzy’s, which was closed. we finally settled on gabriel’s gate. jeremy and bill were there. hi buddies! we did shots again, and at this point, i was feeling really good. i hadn’t seriously had a night out in a really long time. a couple days prior, i went out for one beer, but that doesn’t count. this was Drinking. capital d. and it was only like five beers total, and two shots or so, whereas i used to be able to down a billion beers and shots. yay for no tolerance! that makes me a cheap date.

after the gate, we went back to the pink where i ran into john. john is this guy that i met at the pink on st. patrick’s day 2007. he smoked me up in the bar and hit it off with me and my lesbian friends i was there with. really nice guy. he was wearing a kilt. one of the lesbians and i went back to that bar in august and he was there again in the kilt again. we started talking, i gave him my number, and so on… it never really went anywhere because things that i had at first been iffy on (like the fact that he talks so much… i mean, A LOT), i decided i didn’t really like about him. not that he’s a bad person in general, and i think we would be great friends, but i didn’t want to date him and he took it super personally, which i can understand. he also pressured me a lot, which is never cool.

anyway, we stayed at the pink and ended up having a great time. john texted me right after he left telling me it was nice seeing me. liana’s friend ryan gave me some really good advice about my boy situation; honestly, it was the best boy advice i may have ever received. and i drove them back to ryan’s house and called it a night.

i had so much fun. yesterday was a really good day overall. and i haven’t even written yet about my sex toy party. more to come…